My Birthday, The Existential Crisis
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It’s the day before I turn a year older. Yes that means tomorrow is my birthday, and it’s been a day. Not because of the crazy that usually invades my home but my mind has been on a different level of processing life. What do I mean by this? I mean just like most of us, I see myself get another year older and I wonder if my life is where I want it to be after another full year.
I’m not the type to do New Year’s Goals.
However, I am the type that sees my birthday for what it is, a blessing to have made it another year and, a new opportunity to better myself. I know not everyone feels that way about their special days. Or for some… a special month. But those days of celebrating the days leading up to my birthday like it was going to be the best year ever, every single year are well behind me. And now, I just want to grow and learn to be the best person I can be for my kids and my husband…but mostly for ME.
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What I realized today, in all of my contemplation is I have a great amount to be thankful for, but just like most of us after a long Pandemic and a strange life we are living, I just don’t know how to mold my future and my goals for this uncharted life.
How do we plan for a future that is nothing like we have ever lived?
It doesn’t feel like a stable world with issues and chaos coming out in forms that will make most parents question if their kids will have a good future or not. But it’s not something that can or will be changed in a day, and we all have to keep going.
I know it’s easy to say that, but it’s not only truth, it’s also important to remember that hope is what gives us opportunity. And having been blessed with continuing to live through a sickness that has killed or caused long term suffering to so many in addition to everything else going on in the world. ( I don’t want to name them all and make this a sad post? I will claim my new number tomorrow and hey… maybe even eat some cake!
How do YOU feel about your birthday?
