A Baby During Covid- 19
So there I was, in a hospital bed again. Scared of what would happen this time around but confident I could do it this time. I could take the pain, and the fear and turn it into strength. The strength to get through each contraction and inevitable tear. The strength to become a mom to two little babies who would need every ounce of me. I knew I could give all of me to them both, but what I didn’t know was if I could protect my children from the world during a pandemic.
Having my daughter in 2020 seemed like it was going to be a blessing from the moment of realization that I was pregnant and when she was going to be born. What a nice year to be born was my thought. And 2019 had been such a rough year so I longed for the fresh opportunities a new year could bring. But what I never expected was for the world to be on fire! How could I? How could any of us known this would be the year the scientists were warning us about?
I never thought I would have to wear a mask as I was pushing my daughter out or that I would have to search high and low for formula and diapers after she was born. I also never thought I would worry with my newborn being so fragile, opening a door could out her at risk. Now newborns are always fragile and I know that they should be kept away regardless of what is going on. But there is a big difference of having the fear that someone might have a cold versus there could be a plethora of people all around me infected with a virus that could be just fine or could really harm my children and my family. And worse, we could infect other families and children, because we are coming from a hospital.
This is my second child, I have gone through the sickness and even more intense medical issues with my first child. My confidence as a mom has been growing to know I can’t stop my kids from getting sick but I can definitely try to get them through it as comfortable as possible. But you can’t think like that with this virus, you have to remember what it could do to everyone around you. It’s not affecting just you or your children. And Every time someone walked into our room with a mask on, I was reminded that the perfect moment with my daughter inside was one step out side of a door away from the strange and new normal we are currently living.